From The Start

Released in September of 2022, the song "From The Start" began by experimenting with this really bouncy synth that I fell in love with. From that 3 second sound, I wrote an entire song around it. Everything started falling into place including the lyrics. I was scrolling thru Facebook that night and saw someone I used to be close with venting about their recent relationship ending. They were upset about how it was all a lie and that ultimately, the person didn't care about them from the start. I could relate to the pain they were going through from some of my prior relationships and how mad and betrayed I felt now that it was over. My favorite part of the lyrics was about leaving the picture on the wall. It made me think of how we torture ourselves with hope and nostalgia.

Lyrics

I'm out of patience, sick of staring at my phone (x2) What a surprise, I fell for the lies I guess I didn't see this one coming for me It's hard to forget, the things that we did I'm closing my eyes cause I'm sick of staring Sick of staring at your picture on the wall I thought of taking it down I know you wouldn't care at all Pity party for me, we'll see In a room lonely, lots of time and whiskey Hey, no wonder why I'm falling apart I had a feeling you didn't really care from the start It's not okay that you just left me here in the dark You didn't really care from the start, from the start Can't keep waiting all alone, can't keep waiting all alone by the phone I'm out of patience, sick of staring at my phone I know we said our goodbyes and took some time to realize that it wasn't worth holding onto everything that we had, everything that we did, now I'm so fucking sick of staring... Still mad staring at the picture on the wall I sat around at home just hoping you would call No sleep for me, lately, in a car driving fucking aimlessly So hey, no wonder why I'm falling apart I had a feeling you didn't really care from the start It's not okay that you just left me here in the dark You didn't really care from the start, from the start Can't keep waiting all alone, can't keep waiting all alone by the phone You didn't really care from the start I'm out of patience, sick of staring at my phone